Changes brought upon by circumstances that felt horrible and unaceptable to me, have led me to find the freedom I am able experience today.I can't say how or why I ended up here with certainty.
Strict speculation leads me to attribute my present state of being to my efforts towards personal development and what not, but in the end, I don't know. I really don't.
Going beyond my comfort zone has given rise to many insightful instances. My tendency to look back and engage memories or see ahead and induce fantasies, demonstrates just how often I solicit exchanges with the unfulfillable. I've discovered that my affinity with that quality of 'grasping', 'getting', or wanting, is primary rooted on familiar territory, where safety and security pretend to exist. As of late, when I ground myself in the present moment, it's always filled with more abundance than I can ever expect to extract from those memories or fantasies.
These lessons however, continue to lead me towards expansion and dis-identification from the notion of who I think I am or what I should be doing. I am learning to allow the passage of waves to persist in whatever form they choose. I love life.
