Inconsequential

It's been almost a year since my last post. Much has changed. I find myself in a peculiar state. Unlike the spiritually driven aspirations from before. Today I am a little more conflicted and a little more resistant and a little more troubled. Overall I am not harboring many resentments, nor am I in a experiencing chronic anxiety. It is just that I know from reflecting on last years posts (though few) that my circumstances are not much different from then, and yet my attitude is that of disdain. I was optimistic, disciplined and willing.